I’m Just Me…

Why do I blog? I toyed with the idea for years. Fear held me back…fear of failure, fear of not having enough interesting stuff to discuss and fear of what people may think. (Remember from my first post, I’m a retired people pleaser).

What made me think that what I had to say would hold anyone’s attention? I’ve always been a conversationalist. I enjoy asking questions and really getting to know people. I take it as a compliment , when someone reciprocates, asking questions about my life. I’ve lived a lot of life in my 44 years. I’ve been present when life started…and when it ended. I’ve been married…and divorced. I’ve had dreams come true…meeting and hanging out with my teenage celebrity crush! I’ve had prayers go unanswered…becoming a single mom to a five year old and a six week old. You could say I’ve lived big…and I’ve had the rug pulled out from underneath me.

Every single experience, both good and bad, has molded me into who I am today. After 44 years, I feel as if I’m finally ok with myself. I know what I want. I’m no longer afraid to share the real me. I still hope for approval, but it’s no longer something I “need”.

I post daily on my Insta-blog. Someone messaged me after a recent post, saying they were hurt and disappointed in what I said. I won’t go into specifics, however, my Insta is a public account and nothing has been removed, so feel free to skim over my recents. The message I received was not mean. I was not offended at all. I was bothered this person’s feelings were hurt. As I told them, and I went on to post in an Insta story, I would never intentionally hurt someone’s feelings.

This is where this post comes full circle. My blog shares who I am, not who I want you to think I am. You may agree with me or you may disagree with me. While being honest, I also try to be positive and upbeat. I never want a follower to feel I’m pushing any of mybeliefs on them. I share my ways of doing things, which may, or may not, give you ideas to use for your own.

I sincerely apologized to this person for their hurt feelings. I’ve been sharing myself for over a year now. I receive countless messages of encouragement and thanks from followers. I sat out to inspire, even using the term “inspirer”, in lieu of “influencer”. The one negative feedback, will not change my ways of doing things. The many positive affirmations that I have received, convince me there are people enjoying what I do.

If you know someone who may relate to my writings, please share my name with them. I’m on all social medias, my main account being @maradachaffins. Thanks for all of the support!

Marada